We all know the analogy of banging your head against the wall, and how good it feels when you stop, right? In that same vein, over the past several years, I noticed that right before I experience a great big a-ha moment, I had days, weeks, or even months of head-banging frustration. Wanting to get things to move and change right now right now right now!
Not that I’m impatient or anything.
Oh, and did I forget to mention that I would never remember this pattern in the midst of the frustration? Only in hindsight. Which is ever so helpful. NOT.
The other day I was in the place where most of my insights come up (the shower), and I started feeling that familiar tension… I was stressed, with no real reason to be, and just wanted everything to be sorted and solved right now right now right now. My mind started to do laps around the things I was worried about, and then something new and different happened.
I said to myself, “Wait! I remember this feeling. I don’t have to freak out, this just means change is coming. And if I recall correctly, things always work out in perfect time. I can relax.” Weird, right? But it gets weirder.
I took a deep breath, and WHOOSH! A great solution to my problems flooded into my mind. I was so stunned that I actually had to put out a hand and steady myself against the tile.
Side note – one day earlier, I was in a yoga class and at the end, we were supposed to breathe out something we’d like to release. What came to mind for me was “worry”.
Can’t say I fully understand what happened, but it looks like the universe is conspiring to help me every step of the way yet again!