I was on the beach. I’d cleared my schedule so I could meditate and write and to clarify my vision of the next level of my business.
I came up with… nothing.
So I took deep breaths and let it go and…
Hours of nothing.
The relaxing day at the beach turned into a day of pure frustration.
I was so aggravated, I started saying crazy things to myself.
“Maybe I shouldn’t have this business at all.”
“Maybe I’m just selfish and don’t really care about people.”
“Maybe I should just buy a lottery ticket.”
I carried this crazy headspace into the next week. And the next.
Then in a seemingly unrelated event, I made a very difficult and emotional decision to let go of something that played a big role in my business.
The minute I made that decision, my vision snapped into sharp focus.
I was holding on so tightly to something that was no longer working that it eclipsed my entire vision.
With hindsight, it is so obvious.
But in the moment, with all that beach around me and the sound of the waves and space in my schedule with no pressure, and still coming up with no answers, all I could think was, “What’s wrong with me?”
In the future, I will do my best to remember that I’m smart and very motivated, and then ask a better question: “What do I need to let go of in order to welcome in something new?”